Take a Giant Step

Well Bloggers, it's been three days, and already I have something to spice up my blog. I'm Failing high school! yaaay! oh, no, wait, that's bad. Jesus Christ, I never imagined being a sophomore could be so hard, I mean, if I was in regular high school, I would have killed myself ages ago, I nearly wanted to in middle school. Everything was going so well, and now, now this happens. You know that saying "When god closes a door, he opens a window"? Well, "god" whatever it may be, has closed both window, and door, and turned on the gases in my gas chamber of a life. The thought of public high school, it makes me want to throw up. I couldn't do something like that to myself, I get sick even now, just thinking about it. I'm going to try to change their minds, by trying to turn my grades around, but it most likely won't work. I'm sorry I'm not the best student, I'm sorry school give me nothing back, nothing personal. they give you grades, I think school is a dictatorship. I refuse to be a part of it, but here I am world, stuck in this Nazi camp of a system. Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to drop out. I know if I did that, I couldn't get a "Real" job, but, then, what is reality but a sense of mind? I don't know. I bet I could be an activist, but, I'm just so tired of being a disgrace to my family. I can't do this to them. what would it be like if I disappeared readers? LA has a lot to offer a girl. Not enough, sometimes, but a lot. If I had a drivers license, I highly doubt I would still be in this damn town. Well, I'm going to go try and convince my principal I need to stay in this system. I can't handle any other system! I just can't!

On other note, when I was fourteen I sent Davy Jones of the Monkees a letter in Bevertown PA. I never go a response, but I mentioned in the letter I didn't expect one. When my mom called me, she mentioned I got something in the mail, from davyjones.net. I laughed, and she opened it, and said it was an autographed picture! I'm stunned, how awesome! Now I've got Davy's autograph, and Micky's! I just need Peter's and Mike's (though getting Mike's could be a bit harder). lol. Then I need to try to get them on my radio show. lol. That would be SO COOL!!!!!!! hahahahaha, well, I'm gonna go bloggers. I hope everything is going better in your lives.